Something happened on the Ice

It shouldn’t surprise me anymore. For years, things remain the same in an area, then all at once, what was true yesterday is no longer true today.

My mother-in-law, I have written about her many times. She is 86, fiercely independent, fiery, proud and humble, and loves her time to be alone. That was yesterday, actually, a month of yesterdays ago.

Something happened on the ice. Her story is not clear, a bit jumbled, the details are missing. Somehow a month ago she was crawling on the ice. She says she didn’t fall. She somehow was between her house and her car and couldn’t make any progress. She had no phone, no one was home next door. For the first time in forever, she had no control, she was completely helpless. The wind was blowing 50 miles an hour she said. I just know it was cold that day, and the thought of her in that position, makes me very sad. Then God sent someone to help her up and gathered her back together. She doesn’t know who it was, never saw him before, but for that day he was her angel. And who, knows, maybe he was HER ANGEL.

After that, she began to feel “odd, iffy”. A week afterward, she was sure something was surely terribly physically wrong. We went to the emergency room. They ran test after test, coming back, in her words, “A one.” Now it was time to think it wasn’t physical at all, but fear had crept in where it had no place to dwell before.

She is under doctors care getting some anti-anxiety medicine and follow-up.

A corner has been turned. I don’t know if she will ever go back to that supremely confident woman who was not afraid. God would protect her, and somehow things would work out. Now, she is afraid to go anywhere much by herself. She has not been back to work. She has to have one of my children stay with her every night. She will not shower without someone there.

Where did she go, this woman who went where angels fear to tread?  Pray for her will you? I miss her.

Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.  St. Matthew 10: 29-30 (KJV)

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4 comments on “Something happened on the Ice

  1. So well written and expressed, Esther. From a distance it is so hard to imagine her in this state and can’t begin to imagine the fear that tries to overwhelm her. Pray for you and your family as you are God’s feet and arms of love to her these days.

  2. This is a picture of how our older loved ones hold our hands and our hearts through our difficult journeys as young people and adults raising children. Then at some point, it has reversed. We in turn are holding them, through their physical failings and memory lapses. It really is a prefect example of what Christ does for us on a daily basis, however it is a tangible, something we can touch and feel. May God fill in the missing gap that Mama Primel’s downturn has left in your life dear sister Esther. May your children see the need to shower her with the same love and affection and encouragement as she has for them all of their growing years.

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