And We Have Begun

When is it OK not to do what you know is right?

And we have begun. I sent in the initial application along with some fees to our adoption agency. In my heart, I know that there is another member of our family out there or soon to be out there.

When you are open to special needs situations, you really never know when or what disabilities will be presented. Many times the baby is born and left at the hospital or an adoption falls through due to the disability. Sometimes there is that catch in your throat when you hear the status of the baby or child. There is that pause moment as you consider the effect on you and the sacrifice of your time and uncertainty of the mental and physical health of the little one.  There is always an effect on the rest of the family too. Somehow your heart expands and gathers that little one into your bloodstream, until you feel the separation deeply and begin to roll over all the obstacles to bring the child finally home.

 When I was little I wanted to be a missionary: to go somewhere far from home and teach people and children about the love of their Creator,  that God sees them and cares. Everyone understands a missionary sacrifices a lot, family, money, time…to make an eternal difference. And that is OK!!

Somehow, there is this hesitation around us because of the sacrifice we have to make of money and time to make a difference in one more life. Our life isn’t glamorous like a missionary. Our life isn’t perfect, our children aren’t perfect and Ray and I aren’t perfect. We don’t have everything we want and neither do the kids.  Does one more life not matter? After all, it’s just one. But God called me here, I am just as sure as I am typing this.

Who says we are supposed to quit doing what we are excited about? Why is it OK to be in the bush somewhere in Africa, saving many children, but condemned here in the US? (A link to one of my favorite Africa blogs follows)

You should be a fly on the wall sometime when I am explaining that we are beginning the process of adoption once again. The silence, the pause, no excitement for the journey, for the new life in our family. And these are CHRISTIANS…

Why is it OK to take two month’s wages to go on a mission trip, but not OK to spend the same money to save a child from not having a permanent home?

 Why is it fun to go to an orphanage in another country and help the workers but not OK to support adoptive parents of a large family in the US so they can have some time to go out? Or just avoid them all together because their place is noisy?

What is obedience? Should we weigh what the people around us say more than what our hearts tell us? When God sends confirmation, do we walk away just so the people around us are comfortable? If we don’t adopt this one, will you?

Obedience is lonely.

Sing unto God, sing praises to his name: extol Him that rideth upon the heavens by His name JAH, and rejoice before Him. A Father to the fatherless,and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation. God setteth the solitary in families: he bringeth out those which are bound with chains: but the rebellious dwell in a dry land.

Psalm 68: 4-6


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