No words, just tears

After stabilizing Eli, he had a very uneventful night. This morning, at around 8:30am, the nurse came in to suction and his heart rate began to drop as usual for him. His heart rate dropped but so did his tidal volume (the ability of his lungs to move air). He coded.  Nurses and doctors came running, they were spilling out the door into the hallway, all concentrated on this little guy. Silence, man I hate that silence. as the main attending listened. Working quickly, they assessed his air vent tube had not moved, but hus lungs had collapsed. With their knowledge and God’s hand, breath once again filled little Eli.  I cried. I am so helpless, I am so out of control. Even though he has touched our life for such a short time, the tentacles of love have surrounded us. Tears are continually streaming out of my eyes, God help us all.

The test for strep pneumonia is positive, RSV is positive, and they think it may be complicated with asthma. They put him on lasix to remove fluid from around his inflamed lungs and a steriod for the asthma. Pray for wisdom for the team.

They sent social work once again to speak to me, they have no idea of legalities should something happen. I don’t either. I don’t even want to go there. Pray for Eli, please.

16 When the Red Sea saw you, O God, its waters looked and trembled! The sea quaked to its very depths. 17 The clouds poured down their rain; the thunder rolled and crackled in the sky. Your arrows of lightning flashed. 18 Your thunder roared from the whirlwind; the lightning lit up the world! The earth trembled and shook. 19 Your road led through the sea, your pathway through the mighty waters — a pathway no one knew was there! 20 You led your people along that road like a flock of sheep, with Moses and Aaron as their shepherds. Psalm 77:16-20

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11 comments on “No words, just tears

  1. Dear Eli’s Momma,
    I love that your love for Eli, your son of love, streams through your heart and overflows on your face. The Cross is not the end. It may be “Friday” for you right now, but Sunday is coming! Hugs to you and to precious Eli!!!

  2. Prayers for you and Eli, and the doctors and nurses who are in his care. Remember God is the great physician. May peace that passes all understanding fill you.

  3. Tears flow down this face of mine reading about little Eli and his most difficult start to life. Thank you, precious Lord, for Esther, who loves this little one so much. I know that God has big plans for this little guy and He has placed him in loving arms which are so badly needed. Prayers will continue on your son’s behalf and your family for His grace which is sufficient in times of need. Much love and many prayers, my sister in faith.

    • Someone had read this and it drew my attention back to that time. So glad we are no longer at that place with him, but there are many families who are “there” right now…I pray for them…it was so hard. Without God we could not have navigated those very rough waters.

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