It is hard for me. Reminds me of the Aesop’s fable of the monkey and the jar…do you remember it? The monkey finds a jar of peanuts. He puts his hand in the jar and grabs a huge handful. He tries to pull his hand back out and it cannot fit out of the narrow neck. Rather than dropping them and pulling out a nut at a time, he feels he MUST have all of the nuts at once!! In indecision, he stays there with his fisted hand inside the jar until he starves to death. (there are other versions/ cookies not starving etc.) But of course I remember the DRAMATIC one 🙂
This last year I knew was going to be a year of change for our 4-H group. We have gone through many such cycles. The children grow older and have different interests, some graduate out of the program. But this past year, we had a parent of some of the children pass away, children choosing boy scouts over 4-H… We knew we would be losing at least three families. During March and April, the 4-H programs in our area start up and recruit. You know what I was doing in March and April and it was not 4-H. I just couldn’t do it all…that nut had to drop. The remaining families did not know what would happen, and neither did I. They began going to other clubs…Long story short, we no longer have a club! Benshoff Hill 4-H Club, is no more. I sent in a letter to the county office officially closing the club.
For the past ten years, I have been the organizational leader, and Ray and I have given instructions to 4-H kids about raising, showing and grooming their project animals. Our kids had to join another club too!! It was almost too late for them to qualify. Not sure what happened, but God just snatched that club right out from under us. No more…There is relief, but also sadness. Many years of memories:
It hurts to cut off that branch you know. There is just tar over the scab right now. The children are in other 4-H clubs, but man the years have flown… Seasons change in our lives, doors shut, and we must move on…
“…turn thou me, and I shall be turned; for thou art the Lord my God.” Jeremiah 31:18b