Woke up today and came to the conclusion, the tears are for me and not Ray at this point, and that is not acceptable. I need to suck it up and move forward. Helping me move on is Micah and Mary Anne in the office having a cat fight and they need to play nice.
Second the business may lose and account and I cannot tell Ray. I delegated Larry to handle whatever needs done to see if we can save it. Bottom line is God has to fight for us. I can’t spin all of these plates without serious help.
I am ready to fight, bring it on.
All of the prayers of family and friends are strengthening me.
Last night when I went home, I found out my necklace came.. I bought it before all of this happened and it just arrived. “Strength and dignity are her clothing. She smiles at the future.” On a separate charm was the reference Proverbs 31:25.
God knew I needed that. Those who know me, know I never buy anything…but a few weeks ago, I showed Ray and told him I needed one…
They did a bone biopsy today and we will know the results tomorrow.
March 31 from my journal